UnloveableI know that I will never be loved. I know this because I can feel it in my soul.It is an emptiness that can’t be filled. I know I will never be whole.It’s not because I haven’t tried. That is evident from the tears I’ve cried.Inside myself, I know that love will never be returned.I’m just waiting for it to be confirmed.It does cause me to feel bad and it is definitely the reason why I’m sad.Sad because I’m forced to hide all the love that I have inside.It hurts to know that I won’t get to share the endless reasons why I care.Even though I have accepted this fact it hasn’t changed the way I act.It makes me wonder why I try so much.Is it because I long for your touch?It is insanely tough knowing that my love will never be enough.It is something I wish you could feel. Then at least you would know my love is real.
The Way I Feel I would like to say that this pain is unbearable but I have lived with it for a long time. I’ve come to embrace this feeling of loneliness. I know I will always be alone and that will never change. I’m just stating the truth. I express my feelings but they don’t get accepted. They get overlooked lime a bum on the street. My love is homeless and always will be. I willingly give it away without seeking anything in return. I wish I was blind that way I couldn’t see what this is doing to me. I’m going insane and it is my own fault. Hoping for something that is out of my own control is pointless. So I guess I will just stay in my own little world. There is nothing to fear there. I don’t fear what doesn't exist therefore; I can check love off that list.
This GraveI have climbed out of my grave but if I’m not careful I will be headed back that way.Life inside was dark, grim. I don’t want to go back again. Part of me says what’s the use because my heart is hanging from a noose.I want to give her my all but that is not possible during my fall.So I will continue to live with this hurtShovel by shovel, as I add the dirtHere I am again…emotionally deadYet so many thoughts run through my headIt’s not easy I must confess, controlling this pounding that is in my chestIn this grave I will lay and if you care to know…my headstone it will sayI did not give inI will rise againI’m just waiting for the dayHoping I’ll get the chance to sayAll of my feelings and all of my loveWas once below the surface but now they are aboveIgnoring them is something that I can’t doThere is no way I can be dead as long as I love you
A Hefty Price It may cost me my life to save yours butthat is a price I'm willing to pay.
In the End No love left to giveNo life left to liveI gave everything I had and there is nothing leftYou are guilty...but not of theftEverything I gave, I gave willinglyI have given you all of meI don't know what went wrongI don't know how to make it rightFor your happiness I will always fightIt may sound like I'm madbut I assure you I'm gladI will forever be thankful, My love will not endI am still blessed to call you my friend
Sinking As I continue to sink farther downI realize that I'm going to drownI can hardly waitbecause it will be greatWhen I"m no longer around